Silent nights
06 November 2003 @ 11:10 pm

The silence comes from the inside.

So does the hurt
the pain
the loathing
the fear
the uncertainty.

And in my darkness, I know that I will never be sane.
I can't look at a bottle of aspirin without my stomach heaving.
I can't hold a razor without seeing a vicious red grin bloom upon my skin.
I can't face a lonely night without the sound of my screaming to keep me company.

Oh, my little ones, life will go on, forever and unending. But I will not.
I was not made to stand the test. Be it of time, of humanity, of myself.

I failed, have always failed, and will continue to fail.

Please,
I beg of you,
help me..

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